Heart in a Blender.

Wow. I've graduated! I said that out loud for the first time yesterday after graduating barely a week ago. It sounds weird to actually say it in public. I am no longer in college. Ouch, that's painful to state. Well my life has been the largest range of emotions in the past week. Every huge excitement comes with some bittersweet goodbye. I graduated, a huge monument in the timeline of life, but that means I'm finished with college.. supposedly the best years of your life. I had an absolutely amazing beyond-words graduation party with nearly everyone I love in my life, but that came with the realization I am leaving everyone I love in my life as I venture into Seattle. I sang, danced, and laughed with my roommate as we spent our last weekend together. She left for San Diego and my apartment feels ghostly empty, and I can't stand to be in it knowing I am leaving it sooner than the unpacked-boxes against my walls would show. I'm trying to enjoy my impending venture to a new state, but almost every time I catch myself laughing or smiling it is shortly followed by the sad idea that I am leaving that person, place, thing that made me laugh.

Graduation Party

Part of my Senior pictures

Wow, this is quite the pessimistic post here. But, I'm hoping I'll look back at this in a month or two and realize it all ended up just fine in an apartment I enjoy, a roommate that's tons of fun, and a job that I thrive in. My last day of work in Arizona is tomorrow. Over two and a half years renting boats and spending my days by the lake, and it comes to an end as I turn in my key tomorrow night. So glad to move on to my grown-up job, but sad to leave my best friends at the boat house, and one of the best bosses I could have asked for over my college years. I leave for my drive up to Seattle a week from Monday and I'm still looking for a place to live. I guess you could say I'm a little stressed. So ecstatic, nervous, blissful, sad, anxious, nervous, and everything between. Well I guess I'd rather feel everything than nothing at all. And as they say, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

So remember to smile everyone, and I'll try to take my own advice.
Alex